“In my short time I’ve realized there is so much more to life than getting older and getting mine.”
“This is my ready, set, let go attempt at finding who I am.”
The first time I heard this song, I was sitting at the desk in my dorm room. When I started college, I thought I would find out who I was in the first semester. Pretty quickly, I found out I was wrong. I didn’t make many new friends, and I was falling out of touch with the ones from high school. My grades, while not bad, were not what I expected. I didn’t do much other than go to work, go to class, and see my family. I was sure that there was more to college than this.
“When times get tough I’ve learned that breathing is the best thing I can do.”
Luckily, I had two really great mentors my first year of college. They encouraged me to follow my heart with the confidence that I would succeed. They reminded me of the strengths I had forgotten and why I chose the path I did. They reminded me that I was young and that I still had time in my life. I needed to meet people in this world and form relationships with them. With their guidance, I began making my college experience what I wanted it to be. I learned to take deep breaths and relax when I was stressed. I learned to ask for help.
“I’ve learned to fight, the difference between wrong and right, and how to sleep at night.”
In the past three years, my college experience has been full of surprises. There have been opportunities I would have only dreamed of at the age of 18. I’ve learned a lot about who I am as a person and how to take care of myself in healthy ways. I’ve learned how to be a better friend and that it is OK to be vulnerable and scared of the future. Overall though, I’ve learned that as each year passes life is going to continue to change. I am going to continue learning new things and growing from experiences. I’ve learned that people will come and go into my life and, as hard as that may be, it is going to be OK.
“Something in my heart is telling me I’ve learned to love who I’ve become. I know my learning isn’t done. But oh, I’m afraid I will never quite understand the way I wish I could know everything I would ever need just in case I ever lose my way.”
I am always going to struggle with the idea that I won’t always have the right answers. There are always going to be difficult weeks and difficult questions. We never know what may lie ahead. The beautiful thing about it, though, is that there is room for change in our future. It has been a long journey for me to accept the fact that I will never have all the answers. But that’s OK. I just have to take life one day at a time. I have learned to live life with other people, because while I won’t always have all the answers, other people might have some of them.
“Golden, we are golden because we’re alive. Illuminate our own way from inside, we shine so bright, we shine so bright.”
We are alive and the world is in our hands. Let’s make the most of it, together.
- Molly, TWLOHA Fall 2014 Intern